Title: Control (Close Your Eyes Series)
Genre: Angst, Drama, Drabble
Word Count: 245
A/N: Set during the Android Saga.
Summary: Follows "Conflicted". Vegeta remembers.
He knows she's waiting. And he knows that look. He remembers.
But he can't.
He can't give her what she wants. He never could.
He knows it will hurt her. He always hurts her in the end.
It's what he's good at.
He can see her lip begin to tremble. And though he won't admit it, not even to himself, it nearly kills him.
He hates being the cause of her pain. Because that's all he is for her. Whether he is with her or apart from her...all he ever manages to do is cause her heartache.
So he won't give in.
Her skin looks soft...so soft...he can almost feel it under his fingertips. In a life that was full of hard, callus memories, her touch was the only gentleness he could remember.
Once he dreamt she had kissed him. A delicate kiss. Gentler than anything he had ever felt in his life. In his dream, the power of her emotions had been sealed in that one simple gesture. And it said that she loved him very dearly.
He could almost feel the whisper of her dream kiss now. Searing his forehead.
He wants to feel her skin again. Pressed against his own.
But he remembers what their words. And he controls himself.
He can't do it. He can't give this up. He'd rather be with her now than relive the memory.
Vegeta wanted to feel her skin.
But he couldn't.